Hello world! Welcome back to another blog. This week after the joy that was Nottingham Puppet Festival, it took a bit of a turn. But I still managed to find the positives in all of it, so without further ado, here is what I got up to this week!
Monday: To start the day I watched more of the premier league darts. And Nathan Aspinal's walk on really got me hyped for the day, and I scheduled my day whilst watching it. I then made my way to work. This was a decent shift as despite now being due on my female problems (ladies, you’ll know what I mean) I managed to push through at the end to my shift. I even managed to start my blog on Nottingham puppet festival and how I thought on each of the shows I saw during this event. As I got back I had a nap, with Margo looking very comfortable when I got up as seen below.
After watching the rest of Gogglebox at lunch (where it included a guide dog who has littered ALOT of puppies and a fox was rescued) moved onto gathering day player roles and scenes from Hollyoaks. As I’m writing this I’m up to date with it and I even managed to catch up on one episode of Coronation Street. But I stopped there purely to stop getting overwhelmed.
Whilst I was looking at my review of Opening Night and applied for some more day jobs, I got a call from Steve. It was all very positive, and now it’s at a point where I need to watch the final edit and then send it off. I know that we can’t change anything now, even if I wanted to, but then I remembered from my acting teacher that getting it done is better than getting it perfect. And fingers crossed it’ll live up to its standard.
I then winded down by doing some yoga. Despite a few distractions from the dog I managed to get a good session in. And yes I was late starting but I knew I had to get it in. and for that I was proud of myself.
Later on after walking my dog I caught up on the first two episodes of Britain's Got Talent. Already there were some weird and wonderful acts happening. There’s so much I can tell, but you’d see it on social media just for me to save time. But some the standouts for me were a returning dog act (which their act was just another level), an act from South Korea, a lady who sang a song which Simon hated but now loves, a young boy who turned a negative into a positive, and a dangerous stunt man (and when a medic is on set that’s when you know it’s serious). But the last act was an opera singer from South Africa who blew away the roof off of the whole theatre. And so far I think he’s the one to watch.
I then checked my socials and learnt some Korean. I only did one session, but it only lasted for 15 minutes. But along with a few errors I managed to get my daily goals completed, whilst I also scheduled the next day.
Tuesday: To start the day I watched Mondays addition of Doctors. Sid was not happy when he was pranked, but when you look into why the young girl did it, whilst it’s still not an excuse, I get the need to escape from what has happened. And giving grief to the NHS did not help at all, knowing how much pressure they have on a daily basis as it is. I’m also glad that Scarlett and bear are back, but I have a feeling that they’ll need to get used to the new partner at the mill.
I then made my way to the gym, where I did a leg session. I’ll be honest after the sleep I had I didn’t really want to go. But I knew I had to get at least 2 workouts in this week, so I’m glad I got this first one in. Although the sad thing is I couldn’t do any boxing still so it may be time to invest in some boxing gloves. And with pay day on Thursday I know what I’m going to treat myself to.
As I got back I decided to slow down before the audition. I did this by applying for some more jobs on Mandy, along with doing some surveys. I also saw the final draft of the film and now it’s got to a point where it’s ready for screening. I’m mega excited about those as even if the audition doesn’t go my way at least I have something to look forward to. Yes there were still some issues but I’ve managed to work my way around them and overall it looks amazing. And after filming a tiny segment for the documentary it looks like I’m heading to the next level.
After a few more surveys (where I had to delete some due to feeling as though I won’t get through them all in time) I watched episode 2 of Kin. After the news that Mikey may not be able to see Anna, I fear he may go back to his old ways after the shocking turn of events in the last episode. And like Tommy Shelby with the death of Grace, Amanda is definitely out for revenge. I can’t wait to see what happens next.
I then did the final prep for the audition. I only did 20 minutes thought as it got the the point where I feel as though I find t do any more prep. So going into it as long as I have my notes with me I should be okay. This was then followed by some more surveys and learning some Korean to help wind and settle down, knowing the lack of sleep I got the previous night.
After listening to some music to help me settle I then had my audition. It was good to see some old faces and new ones too. And whilst I feel my part went well, I felt that when I had to leave early that’s when it started to go abit downhill. As I originally planned to leave earlier due to getting my train as even though there was one later, with the strikes still wary I was cautious about what would happen as if the last train was cancelled I couldn’t have got home. I won’t go into full detail but let’s just say that things didn’t go according to plan. And that because Adam my brain didn’t like it, it really was a hard pill to swallow. And yes I did have a cry on the way back, and as I’m writing this I still feel drained emotionally from it. But I need to remember that it is normal, and it’s not all sunshine and rainbows. But because I have an interview for a new day job tomorrow I can’t be upset for too long.
As I got back I slowly but surely made my way to bed and calm down after what’s happened. I did this by checking my socials from my professional account and watching some clips on YouTube. One of which was a past Britain's Got Talent contestant who Ant and Dec pressed their golden buzzer for, and already they cheered me up. I also didn’t schedule tomorrow tonight knowing I needed to be in bed. But I knew what I needed to get done the next day, so fingers crossed I’ll remember first thing in the morning.
Wednesday: To start the day I did some morning yoga. Now that my female problems are happening I do feel better, and I think that yoga session just gave me that extra boost. So overall a great start to the day and just what my body needed.
I then moved onto the first half of my Act On This answers session, with final preparations for my job interview in between. The first part of the session was a mostly looking at an email structure to send to new agents, but this was helpful as next time I reach out to new creatives I could use what Ross did as a base to tweak it and make it my own. I also got some good advice on self-tapes for theatre, and after that answer I can’t wait to watch the rest of it later in the week.
At lunch I watched Tuesdays instalment of Doctors. I’m glad that Scarlett and Suni have patched their differences aside, especially now that Scarlett found out that Suni would be her new boss. I also had a gut feeling about a patient Kirsty was seeing, and that gut feeling was right. But the heartbreaking reason as to why the scenario in question has happened is heartbreaking, but fingers crossed all will work out in the end.
Before I knew it, it was time for my job interview. I feel it went well, and I felt I managed to give some honest answers and answered the scenarios questions to the best of my ability. Fingers crossed I get the results I want.
As I got back, I tried to get a hug from Margo but as seen above she wasn't keen and told me to get some work done. Which I did. So I did some stuff to prep but also wind down as well. One of which was printing off my self written self tapes to film on Tuesday to send to the casting directors of the shows. The main thing for me now is to look at my given circumstances and objectives for both of them and I should be good to go. His then moved onto some Korean and gathering scenes from Coronation Street. Yes it was only one episode but for me it’s better than no episodes. But I feel that this weekend will involve a lot of spring cleaning, and not just from my house.
Whilst I had my dinner I watched todays addition of Doctors. It’s safe to say that Dave did get abit carried away. I know what he was doing was trying to be nice and romantic, but at this point it did all get abit too much. And how he was with Luca, whether it was him being stressed or if he’s always like this is another question. And it was a good job jimmi was there to help when a patient of his goes off the rails and admitted he needs help, and Sid has made Paige realise that the people she was with are not her true friends.
I then had my acting class. This session looked at the three other emotions of PEM, which was fear, revulsion and aggression. And I had lots of fun with those, and the warmup game was even more funnier, and it’s safe to safe my Scottish accent needs abit of work lol! And with the homework that was set fingers crossed I can get it done on time as I’m going to aim to watch last weeks and this weeks season back.
I was going to watch some of The Adventures of Tintin but after an interruption from my dog barking at snowy (even though it’s just a cartoon) I decided to watch abit of YouTube instead. This then moved onto checking my socials whilst planning the next day. I even managed to note some more jobs on spotlight and Mandy, and so after looking at them tomorrow at some point I’m going to look at what tapes to go into the submission I can do and what I can’t. As yes it the opportunity is there then I’m going to take it, but because I don’t want to get overwhelmed it’s key that I film the ones I can make time for without stressing. So watch this space.
Thursday: To start the day despite possibly having another cold I watched Mondays instalment if Hollyoaks. I know that Darren is trying to get to the bottom of this, but little does he know who the real person is when he finds out why Frankie has emergency contraception. I also praise Kitty for sticking up to Carter and giving him some home truths, but I do wonder what the connection to Declan is. Either way I can’t wait to see what as I know next week will be the start of Carters downfall.
I then made my way to the gym. I’ll admit as I’m writing this I may have stated to develop a cold coming. But it’s also hay fever season and even though the pollen is low I might have caught the affects of it early. But I managed to get in a decent session in and that alone is an achievement. As I got back and after I walked my dog I updated my budgeting table (where I set up my new one later on) and cooked the tea. Yes it was simple but sometimes less is more, and I managed to achieve most of it myself. Well done me.
I then finished off the Act On This answers session. There was some really useful information in this one, and whilst I need to join the full programme of first tv role fast track to get all the secrets, Ross gave off some good hints of what to expect for those that do joins I also knew the four key points when it comes to headshots, which is vital as once the screening is done I need to ask my colleague if he coke do my headshots following those key points. But all in all, a good session and a lot to take away.
I then watched Tuesdays addition of Hollyoaks. Now I was not expecting the twist of how Kitty knows Declan, and after stealing the real kitty's identity, I think after putting two and two together that’s an understandable reason as to why she changed her name, but I don't think it'll go down well with everyone when the truth is revealed. Even though Freddie seems like a bad influence at least he is respectful for Kitty’s identity, but with the return Grace Black, things might get complicated. I also know that yes even though Zain was trying to help Donny, after seeing spoilers of what’s to come I fear it’ll all go downhill from there. And yes even though Frankie was forced to put the blame on Lucas after what JJ did, it still wasn’t nice to be put in that situation. I feel that this is only going on longer than it should, but during next weeks explosive episodes things may change. Who knows.
I then made my way to work. It wasn’t the best to begin with as with a cod possibly coming and on my lady problems it’s not been helpful. But after a slow start and a chocolate bar on my break I managed to persevere got through its I was going to do a line run of my script whilst I was working but my body was just drained. And yes whilst I need to line learn I don’t want to push myself. But I know I’ll get there.
As I got back I watched abit of the premier league darts whilst I had my tea as seen below and applied for an acting job. The game against Nathan Aspinal and Luke littler was a cracker, and each 140 and 180 just got better and better. It’ll be interesting to see who makes the play offs which are. Not too far ahead now.
Learnt some Korean and French whilst checking my socials from my personal account and planned the next day out. This was only the one session as I knew I needed to get to bed. And with a coke coming along I knew I shouldn’t be staying up too long anyway. As at the end of the day health is the true wealth.
Friday: To start the day I caught up on the premier league darts from last night. And the energy from Luke littler really got me going, which was more important than ever as I am still blocked up with cold. But thankfully compared to Christmas I don’t feel too poorly which is a good sign.
I then of course as always went to work. It was a mixture for this shift as with me being on my girly problems and having a cold and finding out I didn’t get the job I had an interview for, it was a lot to take in. However after a survey at lunch and abit of YouTube I got through the shift. So all I all I was proud of myself.
As I got back I just steadied myself knowing that yes I needed to look on at least 30 minutes of my acting career, I didn’t want to overdo it. So I noted some more jobs on spotlight (one of which was to nudge my agent on) before hoping onto a rapid fire Friday. I listened to this whilst I started to clean my room and also looked at my tv reviews (where I managed to get it ready for posting after needing to do some minor tweaks tomorrow), and after a tricky start I got some useful information out, including how to inform casting directors of projects I’m involved in without revealing too much. So it was a good extra session.
After walking the dog and doing some yoga I watched Wednesdays addition of Hollyoaks. Even though Freddie made a promise to grace black. I feel he’s starting to get feelings for Kitty, who stepped in to stop Ro from being succumbed to Declan’s poisonous behaviour. I dread to think what will happen when he decided to not leave despite Freddie’s warning. I also had a funny feeling when JJ bought Frankie that dress, and what annoys me so why is he even hearing Darren and Suzanne’s conversation on Frankie getting counselling? Because at this point if she doesn’t tell the truth then, then it’s just going to drag on.
I then moved onto watching episodes 2 and 3 of One Day whilst I had my tea as seen above. It’s safe to say that post university life has been challenging for both of them for different reasons. Emma clearly has lost the passion for acting, and I had a funny feeling about the director of it. And I know the exact feeling when she works in the restaurant, but after her chat with Dexter, who was suspicious about his mum in episode 2 but all seemed bad in episode 3, she may have found the source of inspiration for her writing again.
To finish the day off I learnt some Korean. I did this first and I’m glad I did do that as it was then done and dusted and it didn’t leave me any pressure to do anything else. And as always I checked my socials whilst scheduling the next day. So all in all a relaxing way to end the day.
Saturday: To start the day as always I watched the premier league darts. I didn’t watch the whole match, but I watched enough to get my energy levels up, and "Cake By The Ocean" and "Mr Bright Side" were definitely the songs to do that. So thank you Nathan Aspinal and Luke Humphries.
I then made my way to work. It was an emotional one as I still had a cold. But I managed to get through it and run through some lines in prep for a self tape I’m filming to send to casting directors. I know it won’t be perfect when I film it due to the cold taking over, providing I know my objectives I should be good.
After a well deserved nap I caught up on the first few episodes of reality tv series Love Triangle whilst I had lunch and looked at my tv reviews which is nearly ready to post. I know it’s not my usual dating show but after a high performance mindset coach I follow is on it, it felt right that I’d support him. And so far he’s being a true gentleman. I can’t wait to see how his relationship with his date develops.
This then moved onto catching up on an actors workshop recording (where I watched the last few minutes later on). I normally don’t do it, but because I had some homework to do, I thought a recap was what’s needed. And im glad I did do that, as I managed to recap lots of crucial information.
To help me have a break from work I started to get back to reading "Live Well Everyday". I needed to start reading again after the busy few weeks I’ve had and I’m glad I got back into it today. This chapter was all about sex and relationships, and it’s given me some useful tips in my search for love. I can’t wait to read the rest of this chapter next week.
This was then followed by finishing the first draft of one of my new scripts. This may have ran over, but sometimes when you’re in the flow state, you don’t want to leave. And yes even though I couldn’t remember what I was going to type, typing something was better than nothing and who knows, this may have been better than what I was originally thinking. Thank you National Youth Theatre for letting me discovering free writing.
After going to the shop to get something and walking my dog I did some yoga. Again this may have ran over slightly but I’m glad I did it, and not a moment too soon especially with the morning I’ve had. So it was good to just relax and unwind.
After abit of a block where there was some technical issues with the printer, I watched episode 4 of One Day. Emma and Dexter clearly both fancy the pants off of each other, but how their conversation went was not the best root to go about it. But it’s moments like this where it’s a proper Will they won’t they moment.
I then watched Thursdays addition of Hollyoaks. And all I can say is that I do hope Zain is okay, as even that scared me a little bit. But I don’t think Misbah's actions with Donny didn’t help one bit. I also think that Freddie got his just desserts after both Lizzie and Kitty found out he was playing both of them. And I really do hope that John Paul gets to the bottom of Lucas behaviour, and we all know where that came from. I also hope that Sharon will enjoy her new job, as she deserves a new opportunity.
As the evening drew in I watched the first half of Gogglebox. I’m glad that the Goggleboxers reacted to the dog act, as it was fantastic, but I also wasn’t expecting the drama from Love Triangle they watched, and I’ve not even finished episode 2. But I can’t wait to watch this and the rest of Gogglebox tomorrow.
I then finished off the day with checking my scenarios from my professional account and learning some Korean. I knew I didn’t want to be late to bed, so I didn’t want to spend too much time on my phone. But I need to sleep, and providing my dog doesn’t interfere (as for some reason tonight she was acting weird but maybe she wanted attention lol), I can get a decent nights sleep.
Sunday: To start the day off I watched abit of the premier league darts. I was surprised by Peter Wright walk on, as it changed to a classic Beatles song. Mind you some layers may need to mix things up just so it’s refreshed and new. And I think snakebite has done just that.
I then for course made my way to work. It was a tough shift but as always I managed to get through it. And as I’m writing this I’ve managed to rehearse both my scripts to film on Tuesday, and providing I know the who what when where and why which I sent to my reader I should be good to go. I also had something new to add with my breakfast, which was actually really nice.
As I got back after walking my dog, I watched the rest of Gogglebox whilst I had my lunch. It’s age to say that it’s all getting chaotic on Baby Reindeer, and that I can see why Red Eye is popular to watch. I also never knew that Britain was so good at doing an impression of a seagull.
I then made a start of looking at the script for class whilst also catching up on love triangle. At this moment in time I’m still not 100% sure on what I feel the scene is about, but providing I think of the first thing that comes into my head and work from there and if my scene partner agrees I can develop it. And on love triangle I think it’s slowly starting to get more awkward. Yes I understand why one dates heartbreak may not go away completely, but how they handled it on their date maybe isn’t the best way. I also felt for a lady’s date when he mentioned he’s never been in a relationship, and for me I get why as maybe he didn’t want to lead anyone on or it didn’t feel right. But after looking at the spoilers for the next episode, maybe I can see why he chose to remain single.
Before looking at a recording from my acting class I brain dumped everything for next week whilst I listened to an act on this broadcast. I got a hint of the trailer for an accountants seminar which yes is not the sexiest, but I need to getting onto being self employed ASAP and get advice from an accountant like the one on the podcast, just so that I know what I’m doing and how to claim money back without getting into trouble by HMRC.
I then looked at a catch-up recording from 17th April. I skipped some of it which did save time, but I also recapped/made some important notes on what we learnt going into this new technique. It was a long process but I did it. To help me unwind as always I walked my dog and did some yoga. I was a little bit late to both of them but I got it done knowing how good it’ll be for me in the long run, and I think Margo was tired from just watching me do it, as seen below lol.
To settle into the end of a busy week I watched Thursdays addition of Doctors. I’ll admit I didn’t like the woman who bashed the door of the young man, but after she apologised and they talked I changed my opinion of her. And the way the man stood up to her ex was amazing, even if he did have an accident. But with the help of Luca I feel this will be the breakthrough moment of his recovery of anxiety and agoraphobia. And whether that connection they made will turn into something more I don’t know, but it was nice to see them bond over their traumas. I also feel bad for suni as I can’t imagine the stress he has to go through in his new role, and I’m starting to wonder if Paige genuinely likes sid for the person he is, and if she is only in it for his money then he’ll be a heartbroken man.
I then finished the evening off by watching Fridays addition of Hollyoaks. After zains collapse earlier, why Andre gave him May have made it ten times worse. And what a snake Lucas is, and I know things are going to get worse from there, and that Diane may be caught in the middle of it. And after messing with Freddie after he played both of them, I wonder what Lizzie was going to tell Kitty? Hhmmmm…
After gathering some scenes and day player roles from two episodes of Doctors and checking my socials I learnt some more Korean whilst Margo above was just wanting to go to sleep. At this point I know I wasn’t going to be upgraded to the next league, but I carried on my streak and that’s all that mattered. I even messaged my group about the screening and what those that can’t attend can still do to get involved and be recognised as one of the many members who put so much work into unmasked.
What have I learnt this week? Don’t worry if things didn’t go according to plan, as it may lead onto bigger things. As whilst what I had this week didn’t go my way, I feel the film will lead me onto bigger and better things.
See you soon for another blog. Until next time…
This is The Autistic Actress signing off :)
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